Monday The 26th of September We Begin for 100 Days of Living From Spirit!

Changing our thinking about how we lose weight starts with gentle exploration of our inner life as our bodies are a reflection of our own thoughts.

Friday, August 14, 2015

Know Thyself

Having awareness of self is a fundamental building block to this process.  .... Since I started this over a week ago I have been ever so diligent in my commitment to stay on the path to good health and plain and simple ~ loose weight .
Back in my modeling days that would have been a dirty word. Losing weight was not talked about. As a plus sized model there are secrets .... The size that always worked most were the thinner girls so even then I was always watching my weight. Making sure I stayed in the size 12 to 14 range which really was a size 10 to 12 in real life.
Funny to write - 'watching my weight' but in a way that is exactly what it is . It is having this vigilant awarness of food intake, exercise and maintaining healthy sleep patterns. This was all after overcoming an eating dissorder and creating a more healthy relationship with food and my body.
Not having my very paycheck depend on my 'weight',  over the years the scale has fluctuated. I am no longer a slave to what my body looks like.

Today I have other goals that motivate my weight loss -

Yes I am a woman who wants to look good - This I do Know about Myself
Yes I want to feel full of health and be full of energy to move through my days with ease - This I do Know about Myself
Yes I want to fit into to all my clothes that I love, hanging in my closet - This I do Know about myself

I am motivated my many parts of who I am . Everyday there will be an opportunity for me to find the motivation if I can see the results and believe in my intentions. I went back to how I began this blog before as I did loose 20 pounds just by following my own instructions. so I am rereading and following thru with setting intentions and goals. See this blog -
Step One

I have also decided to get practical I reactivated my fitness pal account and have commited to getting my hormones checked . I am on the attack from all angles. 
I am going to get back a little of where I was but with a whole lot more wisdom and knowledge of self.

Namaste,
Natalie 

Friday, July 31, 2015

GRASPING FOR TRANSFORMATION

I have been in a state of GRASPING ~
Grasping to Transform myself is always for me my mission of choice. The pursuit of a flawless life ~ Where everything is 'neat and tidy' including my said physical self.
Yes, I am tortured but now this body of mine has reached a critical point of needing to be addressed - and not wanting to be 'undressed'.
Yes, the loud voice in my head ~ " how did this happen and how could I let this happen to my self "
to "be quiet - stop the drama and take care of business". So... you put on weight - you entered a new phase in your life: at the age of 50 - menopause is not for sissy's. Then there is a new career - classes, licensing exams to study for and have I mentioned rearranging my whole life with kids and home.
Yes, again dare I say I have been preoccupied - I let my workouts dwindle, I soothed my tired mind and overwhelmed self with food and good times.  202 lbs later - there I typed the numbers... it is out !
Here I am bearing my inadeqacies and human self to the world - I have done this before - I can do it now -
My blog is the anchor where I will begin again -
First off make a drastic shift...after a month in England I am in a 3 day Juice cleanse...Juice Cleanse info on my FB Page  thanks to my local and ever so sunny/happy local juice owner Lynn Morris of
http://sarafresh.com/ 
I feel lighter and brighter and truthfully a little tired -
I feel clean and that is a step in the right direction....

Breaking free of a year of bad habits is choosing 
every minute to vigilantly be aware of my mind
 and look at my cravings as an opportunity to find other productive 
ways to soothe myself .

Namaste to anyone listening..

With A Grateful Heart.
Natalie 

Thursday, February 27, 2014

Staying Still With My Discomfort

I know we all know the feeling of discomfort in our beings "I'm not feeling myself today".

The natural reaction is to just make the discomfort go away - THE SADNESS, THE ANGER, THE UNCERTAINTY. WE ALL WANT TO LIVE IN THE ILLUSION OF CONTROL IN OUR LIVES AS WE MOVE THROUGH OUR DAYS. I ESPECIALLY ALWAYS WANT TO BE PREPARED AND HAVE A HANDLE ON EVERY SITUATION, THAT BEING SAID, I HAVE PUT MYSELF IN SOME VERY UNPREDICTABLE SITUATIONS IN MY LIFE.

For one, I chose to work as a model, where I never knew for certain where my next job was coming from or what country I might travel to. Then later on in my career I  would speak in front of hundreds of people telling my story of overcoming my eating disorders. Not very comfortable I assure you.
Today as a mother of 2 young children 8 and 10 years of age - the dance of unpredictability is a daily occurrence. You either have to be a prized fighter ducking and weaving or an ice skater avoiding the thin ice. Motherhood is dicey at best - You moms know what I speak of!
So here I am these last few weeks being uncomfortable in my skin, feeling oh so many feelings and not running away from them - I admit I am meditating more as a coping mechanism- I guess that is my upside.
 I am aware and seeing how far I can go without having to shift away from the moment.
Accepting your life as it comes takes conscious attention..... stay tuned.

Moving Like the Grasses in the Wind with Ease..