Monday The 26th of September We Begin for 100 Days of Living From Spirit!

Changing our thinking about how we lose weight starts with gentle exploration of our inner life as our bodies are a reflection of our own thoughts.

Friday, July 31, 2015

GRASPING FOR TRANSFORMATION

I have been in a state of GRASPING ~
Grasping to Transform myself is always for me my mission of choice. The pursuit of a flawless life ~ Where everything is 'neat and tidy' including my said physical self.
Yes, I am tortured but now this body of mine has reached a critical point of needing to be addressed - and not wanting to be 'undressed'.
Yes, the loud voice in my head ~ " how did this happen and how could I let this happen to my self "
to "be quiet - stop the drama and take care of business". So... you put on weight - you entered a new phase in your life: at the age of 50 - menopause is not for sissy's. Then there is a new career - classes, licensing exams to study for and have I mentioned rearranging my whole life with kids and home.
Yes, again dare I say I have been preoccupied - I let my workouts dwindle, I soothed my tired mind and overwhelmed self with food and good times.  202 lbs later - there I typed the numbers... it is out !
Here I am bearing my inadeqacies and human self to the world - I have done this before - I can do it now -
My blog is the anchor where I will begin again -
First off make a drastic shift...after a month in England I am in a 3 day Juice cleanse...Juice Cleanse info on my FB Page  thanks to my local and ever so sunny/happy local juice owner Lynn Morris of
http://sarafresh.com/ 
I feel lighter and brighter and truthfully a little tired -
I feel clean and that is a step in the right direction....

Breaking free of a year of bad habits is choosing 
every minute to vigilantly be aware of my mind
 and look at my cravings as an opportunity to find other productive 
ways to soothe myself .

Namaste to anyone listening..

With A Grateful Heart.
Natalie 

Thursday, February 27, 2014

Staying Still With My Discomfort

I know we all know the feeling of discomfort in our beings "I'm not feeling myself today".

The natural reaction is to just make the discomfort go away - THE SADNESS, THE ANGER, THE UNCERTAINTY. WE ALL WANT TO LIVE IN THE ILLUSION OF CONTROL IN OUR LIVES AS WE MOVE THROUGH OUR DAYS. I ESPECIALLY ALWAYS WANT TO BE PREPARED AND HAVE A HANDLE ON EVERY SITUATION, THAT BEING SAID, I HAVE PUT MYSELF IN SOME VERY UNPREDICTABLE SITUATIONS IN MY LIFE.

For one, I chose to work as a model, where I never knew for certain where my next job was coming from or what country I might travel to. Then later on in my career I  would speak in front of hundreds of people telling my story of overcoming my eating disorders. Not very comfortable I assure you.
Today as a mother of 2 young children 8 and 10 years of age - the dance of unpredictability is a daily occurrence. You either have to be a prized fighter ducking and weaving or an ice skater avoiding the thin ice. Motherhood is dicey at best - You moms know what I speak of!
So here I am these last few weeks being uncomfortable in my skin, feeling oh so many feelings and not running away from them - I admit I am meditating more as a coping mechanism- I guess that is my upside.
 I am aware and seeing how far I can go without having to shift away from the moment.
Accepting your life as it comes takes conscious attention..... stay tuned.

Moving Like the Grasses in the Wind with Ease..

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

My mind will not derail me, my feelings not distract me from moving forward. One moment at a time....

My emotional body is on fire the last couple of days and I seem to be full of tears at times, in unexpected moments of my day. Here is what I do about it - I cry , I feel it all flood out and allow the waterfall of feelings. I know  that if I judge and suppress my feelings it leads to pain and suffering for me - I might even suppress with food or TV or anger and short temperateness towards my family. All I need to do is focus on the moment - let the feelings move through me - focus on three things I am grateful for and take the next step in my day. My mind will not derail me, my feelings not distract me from moving forward. One moment at a time....

I am grateful for the silent moments in my day.
I am grateful for the feelings that connect me to myself and reminds me that I am full of love.

Namaste,
Natalie