"We want to be perfect, but we just keep seeing our imperfections,and there is no room to get away from that, no exit, nowhere to run. That is when this sword turns into a flower. We stick with what we see,we feel what we feel, and from that we begin to connect with our own wisdom mind."
by Pema Chodron in When Things Fall Apart
I read this and I am comforted yet frustrated that I cannot access my wisdom mind or my intuition. I know that my own inner guidance is there yet it seems so hard to access.
On this journey of awareness - I keep track and I am on target with my food and my exercise. It is not perfect everyday and I allow myself the grievances with compassion for my imperfect self and my journey, yet how much feeling and sitting with feelings must I do as my days keep surprising me.
For the one constant of my life is always the surprising upsets of my daily balance in the peace of my heart. I am shaken by my life -my children get sick, I don't get the job I want or I lose something or someone precious to me. I crumble and allow the feelings without having them take over and be full of drama. Yet the quiet does not illuminate my inner knowingness . That is what I am promised .... Where are you Wisdom Mind.... I am waiting and listening.....
183 lbs down from 188 - slow and steady.
I see where I am going but am afraid what will it mean and who will I be if not a plus size model and woman...... I am ready for a new experience.. :)
Namaste,
Natalie
by Pema Chodron in When Things Fall Apart
I read this and I am comforted yet frustrated that I cannot access my wisdom mind or my intuition. I know that my own inner guidance is there yet it seems so hard to access.
On this journey of awareness - I keep track and I am on target with my food and my exercise. It is not perfect everyday and I allow myself the grievances with compassion for my imperfect self and my journey, yet how much feeling and sitting with feelings must I do as my days keep surprising me.
For the one constant of my life is always the surprising upsets of my daily balance in the peace of my heart. I am shaken by my life -my children get sick, I don't get the job I want or I lose something or someone precious to me. I crumble and allow the feelings without having them take over and be full of drama. Yet the quiet does not illuminate my inner knowingness . That is what I am promised .... Where are you Wisdom Mind.... I am waiting and listening.....
183 lbs down from 188 - slow and steady.
I see where I am going but am afraid what will it mean and who will I be if not a plus size model and woman...... I am ready for a new experience.. :)
Namaste,
Natalie
