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Day 68
With all the wanting and pushing in life, sometimes it is just enough to be who you are and accept where you are...
After a fabulous time primitive camping on an island with my family over Thanksgiving I came home and was faced with having the flu and feeling rotten. The 'How will I get out of bed" rotten. As a mother you bite the bullet and carry on, with kids to feed and get to school, there is no time to rest. I did slow down a bit and I have to let go of some essentials one of which was this blog (sorry).
It seems there is always a reason/an apology to be made. I think about how I equate these feelings I have of not getting it right to how I feed my spirit and take care of myself.
There is a voice in my head that says - "you must do this or you will be seen as a failure!"
As a mother of young kids their needs come first and yet I am aware that in my living I am teaching them how to be in their lives and it suddenly occurred to me that the one thing I want them to know about themselves is that they are enough as they are. They are not here to prove anything to anyone but to full fill their own potential on their terms with joy and grace.
How do I show them that what others think of me is not the guide to my living and doing.
They may not hear my internal dialogue but you can bet they feel my angst. If they are to live in joy I must show them my joy and my joy comes when I feel satisfied within myself. Sometimes the satisfaction is based on acceptance that I am doing my best. I work to reteach myself that it is I who make the choices by my needs and not what I think others will think of me.
We tell our children "just be yourself" and yet, is it enough that we are ourselves.
Do we measure ourselves by our accomplishments or can we feel our greatness as we are at this moment - beautifully flawed and human.
Can I allow myself to be where I am today -not at the top of my game, but doing my best.
Let me know how you deal with this dilemma of being yourself and what does that mean to you?
I am curious.
Namaste,
Natalie
Day 68
With all the wanting and pushing in life, sometimes it is just enough to be who you are and accept where you are...
After a fabulous time primitive camping on an island with my family over Thanksgiving I came home and was faced with having the flu and feeling rotten. The 'How will I get out of bed" rotten. As a mother you bite the bullet and carry on, with kids to feed and get to school, there is no time to rest. I did slow down a bit and I have to let go of some essentials one of which was this blog (sorry).
It seems there is always a reason/an apology to be made. I think about how I equate these feelings I have of not getting it right to how I feed my spirit and take care of myself.
There is a voice in my head that says - "you must do this or you will be seen as a failure!"
As a mother of young kids their needs come first and yet I am aware that in my living I am teaching them how to be in their lives and it suddenly occurred to me that the one thing I want them to know about themselves is that they are enough as they are. They are not here to prove anything to anyone but to full fill their own potential on their terms with joy and grace.
How do I show them that what others think of me is not the guide to my living and doing.
They may not hear my internal dialogue but you can bet they feel my angst. If they are to live in joy I must show them my joy and my joy comes when I feel satisfied within myself. Sometimes the satisfaction is based on acceptance that I am doing my best. I work to reteach myself that it is I who make the choices by my needs and not what I think others will think of me.
We tell our children "just be yourself" and yet, is it enough that we are ourselves.
Do we measure ourselves by our accomplishments or can we feel our greatness as we are at this moment - beautifully flawed and human.
Can I allow myself to be where I am today -not at the top of my game, but doing my best.
Let me know how you deal with this dilemma of being yourself and what does that mean to you?
I am curious.
Namaste,
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| Sailing to Cayo Costa on our little boat. |
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| camping buddies heading to the beach |
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| self portrait on my shell hunt |
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| playing with my son |
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| greeting the day with some fishing |
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| drift wood - age and wear equals art..... |
Natalie
