Day 45
Natalie Here
Well here we are 45 days in and I have learnt some very important things about myself ~ I can continue to commit to me while being embroiled in the sometimes chaos of my life. This last month I planned, executed and cleaned up my husbands big 50 Th Birthday bash, after just finishing my daughters Birthday party with all her new kindergarten friends and creating a photo shoot for my new promotional work for my agencies, Eco gardens, ballet rehearsal for the Nutcracker ,soccer games.....you know being a MOM. Whew ! And unlike the Real Housewives I did the work myself with the help of friends and family. It was fun and at times anxiety ridden.
Lesson One ~
I can have a huge To do List and still do my workouts almost daily ~ I can fit my meditation in despite feeling scattered and anxious about the outcome of events in my life.
I can continue to practice mindful eating and when I have some yummy food that I especially enjoy not beat myself up as over indulging, but relish the moments as I am in my awareness.
As Stephanie says it is so easy to go to the self flagellation, but when I am aware I can see the separation it creates in me from myself and as I choose to practice loving kindness for myself I am brought back to the present.
Lesson Two ~
My ego/ mind can be a powerful motivational tool. I had two events where my outer appearance was important - One was my photo shoot and the other for me was my husbands party. In both instances I never sought perfection and truly tried to focus on nurturing my spirit. Since I have started this endeavor
I have lost about 11 pounds with my goal being 20. The miracle is that I have continued to keep my focus without being on any particular diet or deprivation scenario. I have enjoyed moving my body and the way it makes me feel. Meditation has at times brought me back to sanity even on the days I fight sitting still for 10 minutes and quarrel in my mind the whole time.
Now here is the joining of paths for me - I acknowledged my ego's need to focus on my physical self ( my outer appearance ) yet realized that the more fulfilling agenda was to feed my spirit by loving me in small ways, daily.
Listening to affirmation Cd's in the car - drinking water and snacking on fruits and veggies ( and when I had Cheetos, being present with myself as I ate each cheesy stick).
I am appreciative for the ego and it's excitement it creates as I step on the scale and then I am grateful for the grounding my meditation makes me feel.
This is how I stay the course operating in both worlds and coming back to my commitment of self focus.
One thing to work on -posting more- I want to sit to write more, yet this is one area that I cannot seem to give to myself. This is my challenge and I hope as I continue that this effort will integrate into my life seamlessly.
As a mother, wife, self employed entrepreneur my greatest hope is that I can learn how to feel like I have a handle on it all. Then again I might only feel that for brief moments and maybe having my spirit to connect with is enough ??
For today I will ask what task can I let go of ?
Let's come together ... we are all here for each other to move forward- I often post motivational little diddies on my professional Facebook page - like me to get more updates.
http://www.facebook.com/NatalieLaughlin
Namaste,
Natalie
Natalie Here
Well here we are 45 days in and I have learnt some very important things about myself ~ I can continue to commit to me while being embroiled in the sometimes chaos of my life. This last month I planned, executed and cleaned up my husbands big 50 Th Birthday bash, after just finishing my daughters Birthday party with all her new kindergarten friends and creating a photo shoot for my new promotional work for my agencies, Eco gardens, ballet rehearsal for the Nutcracker ,soccer games.....you know being a MOM. Whew ! And unlike the Real Housewives I did the work myself with the help of friends and family. It was fun and at times anxiety ridden.
Lesson One ~
I can have a huge To do List and still do my workouts almost daily ~ I can fit my meditation in despite feeling scattered and anxious about the outcome of events in my life.
I can continue to practice mindful eating and when I have some yummy food that I especially enjoy not beat myself up as over indulging, but relish the moments as I am in my awareness.
As Stephanie says it is so easy to go to the self flagellation, but when I am aware I can see the separation it creates in me from myself and as I choose to practice loving kindness for myself I am brought back to the present.
Lesson Two ~
My ego/ mind can be a powerful motivational tool. I had two events where my outer appearance was important - One was my photo shoot and the other for me was my husbands party. In both instances I never sought perfection and truly tried to focus on nurturing my spirit. Since I have started this endeavor
I have lost about 11 pounds with my goal being 20. The miracle is that I have continued to keep my focus without being on any particular diet or deprivation scenario. I have enjoyed moving my body and the way it makes me feel. Meditation has at times brought me back to sanity even on the days I fight sitting still for 10 minutes and quarrel in my mind the whole time.
Now here is the joining of paths for me - I acknowledged my ego's need to focus on my physical self ( my outer appearance ) yet realized that the more fulfilling agenda was to feed my spirit by loving me in small ways, daily.
Listening to affirmation Cd's in the car - drinking water and snacking on fruits and veggies ( and when I had Cheetos, being present with myself as I ate each cheesy stick).
I am appreciative for the ego and it's excitement it creates as I step on the scale and then I am grateful for the grounding my meditation makes me feel.
This is how I stay the course operating in both worlds and coming back to my commitment of self focus.
One thing to work on -posting more- I want to sit to write more, yet this is one area that I cannot seem to give to myself. This is my challenge and I hope as I continue that this effort will integrate into my life seamlessly.
As a mother, wife, self employed entrepreneur my greatest hope is that I can learn how to feel like I have a handle on it all. Then again I might only feel that for brief moments and maybe having my spirit to connect with is enough ??
For today I will ask what task can I let go of ?
Let's come together ... we are all here for each other to move forward- I often post motivational little diddies on my professional Facebook page - like me to get more updates.
http://www.facebook.com/NatalieLaughlin
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| Unretouched photo from my last shoot -retouched coming soon- |
Namaste,
Natalie
Yippee!! I am able to post again!! I have had some technical difficulties in the past.
ReplyDeleteI must admit that I have been less successful in some ways in dealing with "so much" in every day life...which is just that ...every day life! ButI have, lost 5 pounds. My goal was 30 so I am a bit off....But I have found that the days that I can string together where I am loving my small steps and "enjoying the moments"..I am happiest. I am feeling empowered. I feel myslef moving forward on so many fronts.
I was hypnotized a few weeks ago to assit me in this journey. It helps. I will share more when I have time to post at length.
I'm so happy to be back with you ladies...Thank you for your kind spirits and sharing. It takes time and effort to offer what you do. Thank you. N
Wow, doing well yummy mummy. It always makes me feel great when you write these wonderful post's.
ReplyDeleteI am not doing so well. I find being down on myself makes it hard to give 100% to this sometimes.
I try looking in the mirror and saying I love me, I love me, but I really don't. But I have noticed something, if you don't work on the inside first the outside wont look any better either.
Through meditating and thinking why? I ahve come to the conclusion that every extra stone(english weight) I carry is me holding on to things that have happened in my past and with out letting these go I can't move forward.
Sooooooo,
After talking to a doctor he recommended me to a psychologist, however the waiting list is 4 months. But let me tell you, just the thought of finally doing something about it, I already feel a great weight off my shoulders.(Obviously not visible, which would be nice... ha ha)
The biggest step forward for me is finally being in a place where I want to face my demons head on and strong, instead of running away from them. I want to talk to some of the people who have added to my unhappiness and I hope to make them also understand and see how things have effected me due to their actions. You never know maybe they will find some peace too.
Anyway I have babbled on and you all have lives to live and things to do. I'm still not sure if I am doing this right but hay ho.
I hope to be on here before christmas but I will still wish you a Merry Merry Christmas and I will be seeing some of you very soon. xxxx
You both give me such a boost this am !
ReplyDeleteEach step you take will bring you closer to your vision for yourself and your life.
Nitesco -5 lbs is fantastic but the greater reveal is your sense of empowerment that is what we strive for to feel the worth from the inside. It is smiling at yourself with pride.
Anonymous- I have always believed that letting go of pain frees you to become the self that is not compromised by the past. sometimes it is imporant to revisit , experience, let go. thnak you for sharing!
Natalie