Acceptance and Reality of Life........

Well I awoke this morning to the reality of my day to day life and how it affects my ability to focus on my task. What task say you ? The one I  told the whole world that I am doing, losing 20 pounds connecting with my spirit by honoring myself. 

Well love, this is my own journey - here is how the day to day goes- It is summer and friends come over with their 2 kids to play in the pool with our 2, while Emily cooks veggie paella on the barbecue and brings all the 'fixins' and wine to go with.... Yummy , I had two helpings!! My dearest friend has her 40th birthday party Saturday at a restaurant /nightclub and then it is Father's Day barbecue at home. Food and libations galore and yes I did partake in both. There was a certain amount of awareness but after a magnum of champagne.... will I lose any weight at this rate? And, when have I focused /connected with my spirit ? There is a silver lining as the one promise I made to myself last week I did follow through on- Yoga on Friday . Ohh... so good and as I was in my downward dog I notice my arms; my bubbly arms and had to breathe and accept them again ( for the thousandth time). Acceptance  of my current body is so important -any evidence of self hatred must be loved away!! If I am in judgement of self I am not present and my ego mind will take me down a path that I like to call "a time waster/no mans land" It serves no purpose than to remind me to get present and breathe.

So here is how I accept my current body-
Naked in front of the mirror I look and check out every inch front to back . Notice the feelings of disgust and maybe some of appreciation . The appreciation is your acceptance . If I am really having trouble with accepting my body as I see it now I sit still close my eyes and in my mind I infuse every part, every inch , every molecule with white light and allow myself to feel gratitude for myself. Appreciation of self is so important and sometimes to get connected I light my favourite Nag Champa incense or a candle fragrance I love. I also have this patchouli spray from Lolablue that just brings be back to a centered place. This exercise for me serves two purposes- to become present with my feelings and to connect to my higher self, for the moment  I can feel gratitude I know I can engage the part of me that is real,alive and full of love. Obviously in Yoga class I do not do this entire exercise but I quickly acknowledge how I feel and just say yes this is me bubbly arms and and I am grateful for you bubbly arms! I even smile at them.
                             

The moment I accept

myself the way I am,

all burdens simply disappear. 

retouched model photo

early morning no makeup unretouched family photo

Now I have been doing this for a long time and I also have some external help as being a plus model there is an acknowledgement/reward that I recieve over the years through my job, but even getting paid as a full figured model I still worked to keep weight off.  My weight has followed me my whole life, since I was a baby!! The story is so old I am bored to even go into it, but alas one can change their story I have heard and I shall change mine.

Change your story to the one you want. Let me know your tricks! 
One of greatest lessons in my life is that we have to all find our own way whatever we do but sharing of self reminds me we are all the same.

Namaste.

Natalie